luke to me:
"what's the worst thing about being an octopus?"

me to luke:
"um, i don't know. what is it?"

luke to me:
"it takes a really long time to wash all your hands."

i laugh heartily.

me to luke:
"wow, luke! you told a joke that was actually a joke! awesome dude!"

he scowls and i stop laughing.

luke to me:
"it wasn't a joke, mom!"

my bad.

you see,
here's luke's normal joke:
"hey you chicken! get up off of that snowy mountain!"

wait for it, wait for it

punchline:
"and get back into that barn you silly chicken!"

followed by hysterical laughing.

just so you know...i'm a bit enraged at the moment.
it's a creepy cool and collected sort of rage.
but rage none the less.
damn her.

dichotomy...

my life has been a little bit of everything this week.
but mostly it's been writing, sit down family dinners and fresh cut flowers
my fresia are blooming and the smell is intoxicating,
it smells like our wedding day
there were white fresias everywhere.
bliss.

mud hole...

can man live on goldfish alone?
or three year olds?
can three year olds live on goldfish alone?

hmmm.
i'm off to ponder
and lace her juice with pureed veggies.

early morning thoughts, probably not worth reading...

i'm finally catching up on my sleep.
and the losing an hour thing - totally working for my benefit,
in that the kids are sleeping in an extra half-hour or so
(an hour this morning)
and while the house is still quiet, i like to read my scriptures and say a prayer
check my email, change the laundry...
and if i could manage it without waking everyone up -
i'd start doing the dishes from dinner last night
these are some of the things that i like to do without interruption

today is going to be busy
there's so much to get done and so much to clean and so many projects to wrap up
and on top of that, i haven't gotten any significant writing done in two weeks
which is maddening
which is why i need to find myself a babysitter again
they all keep up and leaving for china
i'm going to try to not feel judged

and while spring is in the air i'm going to try to catch up
to re-motivate, to regroup
to figure out what's important and worth my time
and all the things that aren't and aren't - but i've already obliged myself to
i'll wrap those things up this week
and while i do it all,
the cleaning and project finishing and wrapping up
i'm going to try to start my ten pages a day thing again...

yes, i'm doing that again
it was working, trust me
and then i got sick
and said sickness took four weeks to get over
and now i'm feeling almost normal
and need some motivation
so, as of tomorrow and you haven't seen me post a page count
start guilting me, busting my chops, laying on the guilt...
which means, it's all you cam.
you're my girl, you're my follow through...

and heck, if you shame me good enough and i get more pages out
i might just start emailing them to you so you can see what i'm working on
it's a fun one

okay, enough rambling
i have to go start doing the dishes
(because i'm compulsive that way)
and wake the kids up with all the clattering and utensil jingling

have a good day.

just so you know...

she cracks me up.

it's quite the process (miracle) to get the perfect/good enough shot of these four...